Monday...Monday.

Monday morning, it was all I hoped it would be.

But nothing is guaranteed in this world my friends.  Let us never forget that.  And let us never forget to appreciate the moment in its entirety.

This Monday morning I have washed a car, made a business call, and wrote a little of my next book.  The best way to combat depression is to keep pushing forward.  Stay busy.  Do not put your securities in objects or human beings...because objects break or become obsolete....and humans will change (or never change) and disappoint you....plus objects and humans are very expensive.

To put your securities and your happiness in your work and your productivity is the absolute best thing you can do in this world.  Your livelihood is the foundation of everything else, which you can accumulate and add layers of enjoyment to your life over time, but the essence of your happy is always going to be you, your inner peace, your strength, your faith, and your work.

Alvin Toffler, the author of the 1970 smash hit Future Shock is on my mind this morning.  What is this, future shock?  It is"...the shattering stress and disorientation that we induce in individuals by subjecting them to too much change in too short of time."  I think a lot of us are experiencing future shock right now.  I find myself struggling to deal with losing my job, girlfriend, and independence (of my parent's help)...but I am still managing to do a lot of things.  I will either grow into a more evolved human being out of this terrible stress and disorientation, or I will fail and perish as a living organism.  Survival of the fittest.  Only time will tell if I am fit enough for survival in this world.

But giving up is not in my DNA.  Not any longer.  Suicide floats through my head a couple of times daily, but the only thing you can ensure by attempting suicide is that you will not be able to make things in your life better.  You either die, leaving all of the people who love you saddened in your wake, or you fail, and you find yourself in an even worse position than before.  I learned this from my previous attempts.

Maybe I am here for a reason.  I like to think I have a purpose since I have escaped death so many times.  I am still searching for that reason.  Maybe I will never find it, and maybe the reason doesn't exist.

But I will enjoy this beautiful fall weather as I go about my day, doing more labor outside.  And I will enjoy trying to write a couple more novels.  And I will enjoy my true friends who lift me up when I am down.  And I will do my best to lift you up if you ever are in need.  May you have a blessed Monday morning.