I don't want you to think that this is going to be a pity party site. I don't think that it is and I don't want you to get that impression. If anything it is a reaffirmation of life, a poem to reality, a love letter to the world.
I embrace all human emotions, the good and the bad. For if there were no mountain, there would be no valley, and vice versa.
It is wonderful being me. Because I am free to do what I want with my life, and enjoy all the results of my actions, good or bad. I have my youth, my health, my family, my dog....there are so many things to be happy about.
I thought about erasing that last post because it was so negative. But I won't, because it was a genuine feeling and shouldn't be ignored or disregarded. The space between optimism and pessimism is razor thin.
I love all of my friends. Thank you for reaching out, to those of you who did. Obviously you didn't listen to me about not needing advice, but the gesture is heartwarming. You know I only break your balls out of love.
Speaking of love, I wish this girl in my dreams would materialize. I have dreams about her just about every other night. And I don't even know who she is, or if she exists.
C'est la vie. I am trying to learn French on top of writing two novels and editing another. I took a semester of it in college and had the worst professor ever...I will be a better teacher to myself. I always did fancy myself autodiadactic. The great one's always were.
Keep dreaming young Honnold. Keep Dreaming :)
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