For all of you out there who are interested in knowing what is going on in my life....well, I am recovering quite well. In a past life, I was married. It was a marriage for all the wrong reasons. I think that this song actually discribes what six years of my life was like, from a recovering drug addict scholar athlete straight into a marriage with a great amount of emotional instability.
It is a wonder that I am still alive by most accounts. I have almost died several times. I joined the military because I felt I had no other options left. I wanted to get help for my wife and her mental state. I ended up needing help for my own mental state. I was in the psyche ward twice for trying to kill myself.
Its ok. I am not mad at the world. Every decision I have ever made has been thought through from the absolute bottom of the goodness in my heart.
Here I am a thirty year old who has lived through more shit than most people three times my age. I have served my time and that is why I write.
Every single day I will write and hopefully I will get good enough to make a career out of this and a life for myself.
Until the day that I die, if I never make another cent from writing... I would still do it because it is my only purpose in life. Nobody need read what I have to say. I don't even have a choice in the matter.
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