So its that time of year again. I used to love Christmas. Now I am just happy to get it over with as soon as possible. It is funny how time changes things. A big part of why I don't like Christmas is that I am single AF and everyone else seems to be having the time of their lives with their partners. I fell in love a couple of times. Each time I ended up with the same results. A heaping plate of heartache. Now that I am older and building up barriers, it seems more and more likely that I will remain this way for the long haul.
And you know what, I am not fine with that.
But, I will learn to manage that much I tell you.
The thing that keeps me going is fellowship. I would say that I have some pretty good friends, and my friends give my life a little more meaning.
I wish I felt God's presence more this time of year. Afterall, aren't we supposed to be celebrating the birth of his only begotten Son? That is God's love made human, for all of mankind. It is weird that as a follower of God I should feel so empty this time of year.
Alas, the days grow longer, and my heart beats stronger. I look forward to another year of life, so I can complain some more next Christmas.
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